Tear Jerking Inspiration

"People who are meant to be together will find their way back to each other. They may take detours, but they’re never lost."

I find this really stupid

Right now, even surrounded by my family, I still feel alone. Throughout our whole trip home Shawn has been taking charge in my thoughts. Which really shouldn't be happening because I know that breaking up was the right thing to do. I guess this dreaming about him has just been due to the fact that we talked on the phone last night, and during this trip I've been the extra wheel: Mom and Dad, Matt and Jaimie, Ross and Jessica. 
Going on adventures was something Shawn and I did every time we were together. He would love all the things we've been doing! Whatever we do; seeing famous landmarks, swimming in local water holes, catching crawdads in a river, or even just sitting in the car driving to our next destination, i feel he would love. It would be so much more fun if he were here with us.
This happens to me every once in a while...i get these really aching longings for him. I can't tell if i miss him because i miss who he is-Shawn, or if i miss just being accompanied by someone who I get along with so well. I severely still want to be friends with him and talk to him about anything and everything...but if these feelings and waves of sadness continue to occur...I don't know if it's going to be possible. However, I suppose being able to remain with him in some way is better than never being able to interact with him again. That would just be awful.

This song always reminds me of him. Probably because our first date we went dancing and he just blew my mind with how good he could dance. Then throughout the time we were dating he would pull me into the kitchen and he'd show me what he learned in his dance class that day. I loved dancing with him.

Yes world, I am a girl.

And I'm missing the only boy who has ever had me.

Midnight Madness

Here's the video of Brynn and I acting like mutton-heads-told you I would post it ;]

Just Kidding

THE STARS!

Talk about land of the beautiful!

These past couple of days my parents and I have been driving from Rexburg to Yellow Stone, then Yellow Stone to Mt.Rushmore. Oh my lordy it is freaking gorgeous out here! We've taken a lot of pictures (will post later) and seen the most amazing sights. 

When in Yellow Stone we saw a grizzly bear, Elk, Buffalo, Prairie Dogs (haha), and unfortunately, no moose :(

On one stretch of road we saw the best sights. Mom and Dad's new camera allows for Panama shots i believe it's called. Got a lot of fields, mountains, and the most awe inspiring sky. Times like these you know there's gotta be a God-that's why i like to thank him for the great views :)

Today our trip through Wyoming started out uneventful; However when i woke up from a nap we were in this amazing canyon! It looked like the grand canyon. It was so cool and so unexpected. That's something we tend to lack out in the east-ever changing landscapes that vary from large valleys to towering, rocky peaks. 

Tonight we got to see Mt.Rushmore :D

Unlike the Statue of Liberty, this monument actually held up to it's pictures. It was so cool! Wish photos could be put up now, but it'll have to wait. I recommend going to see it if you ever get the chance.

More of our cross country journey...maybe tomorrow. It's going to be a long driving day. Then Jessica and Ross on Monday!

It's a Good Awkward Stage Right?

Meaning with Shawn-I feel it's at the transitioning stage of baby uncomfortableness to good friends again. Definitely still planning on writing him that letter; which only leaves me 4ISH days to write and deliver it. Don't judge! It's harder than you think.

 P.S. Miss Brynn makes me laugh into tears! Of which i have shed many tonight.
SHE SO FUNNY!
We're going to be YouTube stars one day...yep...when our video is done ill be sure to put it on here. I hope you like it :) it makes me pee my pants from so many har har's.

Tonight at stadium singing we sang primary songs. It was so wonderful to see grown college kids jumping up in the air to the "Jesus Wants Me For A Sunbeam" and doing all the hand motions for all the interactive songs. I couldn't think of a better way to end the semester :)

I love writing in this color.

It is currently very late in THE MORNING. Yes indeed. I quite like staying up late some evenings. It when the worst and the bad stuff happens, heehee.

Fun times like tonight make me wish the semester was longer. There is less than a week left i have to spend with the wonderful ladies. Got to make it the best!

At the moment I'm rather unsure about what to talk about...

Curses...

THIS IS THE END......for now 0_0

 

Let's Breath in Life Today, yeah?

I have a feeling today won't necessarily be full of incredible activities, but will be full of life. There's a lot of events that have happened so far today that were really unexpected. The nights not over yet, so adventures are still likely to happen, but I'll tell you what little things have happened today :)

~Was texting my mom all morning about their road trip adventures.

~Had a DELICIOUS breakfast of Carly eggs on toast.

~I ran a mile on the tread mill and didn't get completely exhausted! If anything by the end I was running faster! (Ok so it was because I knew if i ran faster I'd be able to get off sooner, but it still counts!)

~Haha I haven't sung in the shower like that since the beginning of winter semester-IT FELT AMAZING! 

~Figured out how to effectively use a hair curler and will use my new found skill to rock it up at church tomorrow.

~Went to my FHE sister Heather's bridal shower. I LOVE bridal showers! They get me so excited to be engaged and married. Plus being there for the soon to be bride is the best. Seeing her so happy and what not. The weather was perfect (it was outside) and the party was filled with many laughs and games. Water balloon catapulting with towels, volleyball, having the engagee's stuff their mouth with bubbalicious bubble gum if they got questions wrong about one another, and not to mention delicious summer food to eat. Mmm...

~Belting out Disney songs with my FHE sisters on the way home from Idaho Falls.

~Got to watch Legally Blond while writing my missionary friends.

~HOW COULD I FORGET! After working out I came in and Brynn said "I think your phone rang. It's the one with the rave music right?" It was mine so i went over and saw that SHAWN had called! I was like what the poo? I called him back and he had called to say thank you for the months we spent together. He told me about the girl i saw him holding hands with. She really liked him apparently and they got into a relationship really fast-which turned out to be a bad thing. They broke up not too much longer agreeing that there wasn't enough time in the semester to really see if it would go anywhere. Not going to lie it made me really glad that he was telling me about her. Put my curiosities to knowledge about what had been going on. We were on the phone for about 30 minutes just talking about things that had been happening in our lives since we broke up and things that we're doing after the semester. It was really really nice. I consider him one of my good friends-and it's just so dang easy to talk to that boy. 

THEN because I asked him to tell me how a dance thing he was in tonight went, he called me again tonight. I was expecting a text. 

That's all that's happened so far today, but I still feel like something is going to happen even though it's almost 11 o'clock. Who knows what it would be! Heck it could be nothing at all. Guess we'll have to wait and find out ;]

True Love

Today the Lord showed me examples of love that I can't deny. Looking back there were quite a few instances. I just don't want to let those memories get lost to life-neither should this feeling of adoration, love, caring, and appreciation be forgotten. 
-My mom  encouraged me to call a dentist office here. My tooth ache has been really severe lately. It keeps me awake at night and is really painful. The office happened to be able to see me tomorrow morning. The problem will be diagnosed faster than I ever thought could happen.
-My friend Tyson said Hi to me in the gym this afternoon. It wasn't much, but I'm glad he didn't just pass me by. I love the moments when old friends come up and say hi to you-it makes your day that much better.
-Walking home from the gym my fhe sister Ashley came out of her apartment to say hi to me. It made me feel so special that she would come out like that just to talk to me. I appreciated it more than she knows (I'll have to tell her).
-Someone cleared out the dishwasher-thank you.
-Using the amazing internet I found a beautiful song that was on a movie. I like it so much I'm considering it for a wedding song.

-Then...the thing that hit me the most today-brought tears to me eyes, was something so simple...something that barely took any effort.

Randomly checking my Facebook this evening I saw that two of my friends had written on my wall. One from one of my friends little sisters which touched my heart, and another from a beautiful girl who was a Laurel when i was a beehive. She talked about how she's watched me grow up into a beautiful young woman...and I'm not sure why but hearing/randomly getting something like that from her...it made me feel so special and unique. I've always looked up to her and what she's become. She went from being a rebel child to being so close to God and the gospel it amazes you. I'm not sure why these wonderful ladies decided to write on my wall-on facebook of all things-but I am so terribly happy that they did. It makes me feel close to people i haven't talked to in ages. People I never would have guessed missed me or thought anything about me. It makes me want to cry with joy! The small simple things people do really can make a difference in our lives- even if only for a moment, better one terrific moment than one felt alone. It made me realize that God is always with us. He knows what we need and sends us angles to make sure some of the small brief moments here on earth are worth while. Thank you so much. Thank you ever so much. I love this life.

Inner Nerd come to Life

WHEN I GET HOME ONE OF THE FIRST THINGS I WANT TO DO IS TO PLAY THE LEGEND OF ZELDA AND MARIO 64!

Yes, as you can tell, I am super excited to go home and play video games. Today after church Abbie and I were listening to these Zelda songs and do-bo-de-do-ing along-I loved it! Being a nerd with Abbie is one of the best things ever :)

 I just hope my brothers don't need the 64.

IM ON A BOAT!

  

Okay so I realized when I go on a cruise I'm going to listen to the song "I'm on a Boat" by Lonely Island the soonest possible moment i can. Preferably as close to the nose of the ship as possible ^_^

Then I also ordered the movie Hot Rod. I don't know if it's funny enough to buy, but I know it's an AWESOME group movie to watch. Plus it has many memories tied to it. Just one to have handy :)

Today was a really good day actually.

Quite productive without being over bearing. In other words I got to party a lot and didn't do much homework; but i did go to both my classes today, that's a good thing.

• Watched the new royal pains episode 
• Took a nap
• Wrote two missionaries
• Got my project for my friends here underway
• Went to the plasma center and gots money
• ATE TERIYAKI
• Watched the Count of Monte Cristo with the fhe sisters and some of their friends
• Got the mail
• Watched Conan O'Brien and other funny comedians
• Did the full out teeth cleaning routine
• Started a book I got from the library

 

Not bad eh? Pretty eventful day :) filled with much laughter as well. Tomorrow will be filled with many adventures as well. Least we're planning to have many adventures-peter pan would be so proud of us!